"Your base warriors are complete crap with out the space buffalo to lead them."

This quote is the funniest thing I've heard all day, especially when taken outta context.

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Sometimes

Sometimes I want to evaporate into smoke.  Simply close my eyes, fall backwards a little, and simply fade into a smoky trail of nothing.  I don't mean this in a negative way.  I just think it'd be cool.  I think I'd like to reappear in Barnes and Noble.

A thought

The girl enters the café with a hood on and a largely large jacket. It's obvious she is trying to dress incognito as the viewer cannot distinguish her facial features. She looks very suspicious as she her hooded form looks around and she hurries to sit down at a table with a man and his laptop already there. The camera takes a look at his face briefly. She sits opposite of him, and from her satchel pulls out a laptop and pulls it open. She fidgets with her computer and the camera slowly pans around over her shoulder and looks at her screen then pauses (this I'd all done in one take). The screen displays a video chat with the man across from her, face. The camera continues to pan around counter-clockwise and now over the mans shoulder. While the camera is panning the woman is removing her veils, and when the camera settles over his shoulder and looks at his screen, the woman is seen to be just finished with pulling her hood off and looks directly at the camera through the screen and she smiles warmly and mouthes 'Hey you...'.

Is it really Tuesday?

It's been awhile hasn't it?  I always told myself 'Today I'll update', but... of course nothing happened of it.  Also, I've had a lot of thoughts flowing through my head but... I think updating about what goes on through my head is getting rather old.  Instead I'll update about what's going on currently in life.

A simple quote

This is a quote I've come across that I find so provocative in more ways that I can fathom.

"Cruelty and generosity are but the impulse of a moment. Beauty and sensuality are virtues that can be expressed in bloodshed just as easily as in song. To an unfettered Eldar mind there is neither sanity nor madness, but merely a wave of perfect existence fulfilled by its own savage momentum."

 -Ralamine Mung, 
           Ordo Xenos.

Nightvision

I fear we have lost our night vision.  I walked under the stars, through cool brisk air and watched them.  I watched them twinkle and shimmer, sparkle and fade and I thought to myself - how beautiful.

These stars, these celestial beings, who've guided sailors, travelers, and men of all sorts through straits too narrow or through seas uncharted.  These stars who serve as bastions for gods, for canvases for demigods, and  inspiration to mortals.  It's these very stars that I look out upon, who have held their place for eons.

Men of all walks of life have served under these stars.  Born under them, lived and died - under these same stars.  Sun Tsu, Socrates, Galileo, Shakespeare, Kierkegaard, even Einstein, have all walked under and gazed upon these stars that I look at today.

But I fear we have lost our night vision.  When I look out at the night, I know I don't look at even a fraction of them.  I know the ones I see are but a shallow reflection of the depth and breadth of stars out there.  I fear we have lost our night vision.  I know there are more stars in the universe than there are grains of sand in all of the beaches of the world.  I know this.

But I only see a handful.

Why can't I see the gods of old?  Why can't I see heroes who were immortalized into the heavens?  Why can't I see into vastness of the universe as generations before have?

I fear I have lost my night vision...

I've run with banshees

I've run with banshees,
I've run through the night with them,
I've heard their wails,
I've seen their woes
and I've seen their smiles.

Wraithsight

Wraithsight is a term that affects Wraithguards and Wraithlords in the Warhammer 40k universe.  Let me make this very simple and say, Wraithguards/lords are big robots who have the spirits of dead people in them to make them run, but because they're halfway between dead and alive, they don't exactly see the universe as we do - the are caught between the physical and metaphysical realms.

Which makes them slow and seemingly unresponsive.

Why do I bring this up?

Finished finals

I finally finished my finals - and it feels great.  I had 3, one music one that I didn't feel confident on at all, one for stats which I'm not very sure on, and a 10 page paper that I knocked out in 2 days for my religious studies class, which I'm not sure how sound my thesis is.

B-U-T I'M FINISHED!

LINNNEEE PIEEECEEE!!!

So, this video has surfaced around the internet for awhile.  This is exactly why I don't play Tetris, because the God of Tetris tries me in ways that I am simply not prepared for.

For the record though, the chubby one does a pretty good job!

Me

A picture of myself I rather liked.

I'd pay good money for it

The illustrator deserves credit!

An idea

after recently being broken up with, the broken hearted boy walks home through the urban city while the camera leads the way filming him from the front and reversing to keep pace.  During this scene, the Protagonist is wearing blue jeans, a vest, and a sweater or a heavy jacket of some sort with a high rise collar or a big hood.  He has a small afro, or a very distinct hairstyle or color.  He keeps walking, obviously distraught over being broken up with.  After some time of walking (~15 seconds) he puts in his headphones, and sings along with the song aloud.  During this, it seems as if he's actually singing the song.

The camera will cut to different angles of him singing, some shots will show people walking by staring at him as he is oblivious to their stares as he continues to sing aloud, muting the world around him, focusing on the sorrow in his heart.  After he has sang the song till it's end, he pulls one earbud out, and the sound of the music is muted in one speaker to the audience, then he pulls the other out, and the music is gone, as if the audience were him, listening to the headphones.  He turns and it's revealed he's home, as he sulks into his house, and he closes the door, it's obvious that his house is very lively and people are shouting and his mother says something funny when taken out of context, and the door shuts.

Stay with me baby

Man I wish I could throw my voice around like Lorraine Ellison in the song 'Stay With Me'.

Man that woman can wail.

Of people and animals

I love people who look like animals.  I think it may be my imagination, but I start to find all these little things that they'll do that makes me connect them even MORE-SO to the animal they remind me of.  I don't know why, but I get an absurd amount of pleasure from people who look like animals.

I love it.

P.S. I really like people who look like bears.  Or otters.

I have a new favorite word

and it's 'kabuki'.  I'll try and use it as often as possible.  Wish me luck.

**Edit:  It's now been some days that have passed by and I have decided that the only way to actually use the word 'kabuki' is three-fold.

1) Talking about actual Japanese 'kabuki'.
2) Talking about Kabuki Joe from the failed Nintendo 64 game 'War Gods'
3) Talking about how using the word 'kabuki' is almost literally impossible.

61 great free apps

All credit goes to Lifehacker for setting up this FANTASTIC list of awesome apps.  Personally, I use...

1. Firefox
2. CCleaner
3. Dropbox
4. 7-Zip
5. Open Office
6. Chrome
7. uTorrent
8. Gmail
9. Microsoft Security Essentials
10. Thunderbird
11. Imgburn
12. Picasa
13. Skype
14. Pidgin
15. iTunes (unfortunately)
16. AVG
17. Spybot Search and Destroy
18. Rainmeter

Well, I have or still do use those programs.  Also for the record, why didn't they put Steam up there?

Kinda weird...

For the full jump, check it out!

Steam deals

I fucking love Steam and Valve.  For Black Friday, they're doing a CRAZY Steam sale.  By crazy, I mean EFFING crazy!


Check it out!  It's seriously worth it guys, I personally own Dawn of War II and Red Faction Guerilla, and those games alone are worth $50.  The fact that ALL THOSE GAMES TOGETHER are packaged together for $50 is beyond words for me.

Thanksgiving

A picture of my family and I at Thanksgiving, hope you all had a good one!

The eccentric and absurd

I know the name of the game is to hate the eccentric and absurd, but I simply cannot abide by this when it comes to certain people. For example, Lady Gaga. I completely understand why people would hate her - attention whore, just another Prince or Madonna, looking to get her 5 minutes in the spotlight, fake, hypersexualized, the list can go on.

I would like to look the other way at what she does.

To me, Lady Gaga symbolizes everything that we all secretly want. I know, I know, if anyone actually reads this blog, they'll probably already be disgusted at me saying that and stop reading, but for the bold of mind, please continue on and give me the opportunity to explain. Lady Gaga to me, symbolizes what we all want, completely unfettered and out there, really doing what the individual in us wants, when we want attention, we want attention. To me, Lady Gaga wants attention, SHE GETS ATTENTION. If you hate her for that, I think your hate should be redirected to those are GIVING her the attention. If you want something gone, give it no reason to exist.

But yeah, to continue on, Lady Gaga stands out alone from the rest, she sings louder and better than most, she stands out as a performer and an eye-catcher, she does what she does better than almost anyone else. Yet we continue to hate her for being weird, for wearing stupid things, for having stupid hair or glasses. That to me is stupid, I think instead we're all too fucking afraid to wear what we really want. We're constantly caught in the fear of looking stupid - I'll be the first to admit I am. We're all worried that we aren't good enough, we try and please others for... what? For their approval for our continued existence? At the end of the day, you'll still be you, and you will continue on with or without their approval, so why even ask it?

Lady Gaga (to me) doesn't ask anymore, she has cut out the middle man and simply does what she does for whatever reason she may do. We live in a society that binds itself to itself and essentially creates cohesiveness and in essence, weighs itself down (not necessarily a bad or good thing, it simply is). We create these rules for which we all choose to abide by (once again, not a bad or good thing, just a thing) and I guess ultimately I'm saying it's very nice and refreshing to see someone break the mold and stand out.

Anyways, here is my favorite song by her. I hope you enjoy.

Lollipops and the breeze

I'm sitting on a stone staircase sucking on a lollipop that's a little too big for my mouth listening to the breeze and watching clouds.

There actually aren't any clouds.

I don't know why I thought there were. But there is a breeze. And a lollipop. But now it's not too big for my mouth.

There's also the passage of time.

An outlet

An avenue, a venue, a way, a path, a notion, a thought, a smell, a sound, a love, a hate, a cliche.

Just another place for me to get it out. I hope this one works. I hope they all work. But I hope this one works too. I hope, I hope.

But I'll keep this one secret.

Just for me.

and You.