I never write

But I should... and I am now.  I woke up this morning feeling very good, good enough to write an entry ;).  I'll be moving to San Diego soon.  I'm so uncertain of myself and my future, but here's a thought - one thing that does stabilize me about my future is knowing that I can't lose to some of my individual peers.  Kinda weird, you think I'd want a solid future for myself and to be happy, but instead I just want one to be ahead of others haha.  Oh well, different paradigm I suppose.

I'm also finding out more and more how radically different I think and feel from other people.  I always thought that over time I'd sort of end up just being like everybody else, have I always been different or is this progress over time?

This morning I walked with Zephyr and Chunky outside.  Sometimes we do this... I carry her in my arms and Chunky hovers around us with his round little (big) body.  I take her to smell the flowers and she reaches out and tries to hold the flowers to smell them better.  When they die, I think I'll remember subtle moments like that most.

My next post will be a story that I hope you silent nobodies will enjoy, after all - this is all for you.